Last year on this day we spread Fisher’s ashes and spent the day doing special things to remember him as a family. We gave each other alone time and then reconvened at a park over-looking the water where we are reminded of Fisher. The kids played and we got to smile and cry and remember throughout the day.
One day that year, when Barley lost a beloved helium balloon and had started to cry, he soothed himself through is tears saying “now baby Fisher will have a special balloon in heaven.”
I was so touched by his remembering and loving thought towards his baby brother. That kid has a huge heart!
So that had to be our special thing. We each picked out a color we wanted to give to Fisher and wrote our special messages to him before launching them up to heaven.
In my time alone, the public beach dark at dusk and empty in winter, I cried out to heaven on the shores where his ashes were spread. I was full and pregnant with my new baby girl due in a few days, anxious, hopeful, angry, heartbroken and hurting. So much was the same, but so much was different in our lives.
We came home and watched his memorial service, the video we made of his life and fell into bed exhausted but full from a meaningful day remembering.
I would love to hear others’ ideas of how they intentionally remember a loved one on their birthday or on the day of their loss.